There is something that is bothering me very acutely. It’s been one week now. The more I want to ignore this, the more it gets on me. It can be a minor issue if I ignore it. And it can be a major issue if I give it some more time and thoughts.

God!

I just don’t want to think about it. And the worst part is that I practically can’t do anything about it.

I am so helpless.

I should be concentrating on more important things in life. But no. I guess there is someone who wants to make things even worse for me (as if I am already having fun).

Does anyone know a good shrink?

When I am happy, people have problem.
When I am sad, people have problem.
When I speak, they have problem.
When I do not speak, then also they have problem.
Is there something wrong in my head?
Hmmm….what to do??

Fine. I think I need to take some serious decisions at this point of time. Decisions that wont change. I know am really bad at doing this. But this time I am going to try it with all my will power.
I am fed up double standards people show.
From now onwards I will give my emotions a break. They really need to take some time off.
And from now onwards I will try to prioritize things a bit practically.
Lets see…..

No sleep
No sleep until I am done with finding the answer
Won’t stop
Won’t stop before I find a cure for this cancer
Sometimes I feel I going down and so disconnected
Somehow I know that I am haunted to be wanted
I’ve been watching
I’ve been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I’ve been searching
I’ve been living
For tomorrows all my life

-The Rasmus