Can someone please tell me what is the good, or should I say decent way to end a telephonic conversation?
Should one end it with saying goodbye, goodnight and take care stuff.
Or one should just disconnect the call without even giving a slightest hint that he or she is going to do this.
Or one should just cut the call without answering the other person’s bye and take care stuff?

It was a really short stint, but it was damn frustrating. People at work somehow managed to make me act in one of promos for one of channel program. It was about some morning show. And I was made to drink tea! People, who know me, are aware of my dislike for this much hyped drink.

Any way.

The shoot was frustrating to the hilt. Thankfully, I didn’t give any retakes. But the producer wanted to capture the same action from different angles. And hence, I had to repeat the action again and again (well, he had only two cameras).

And…I had to drink the hot tea again and again. And I ended up with burnt lips and tongue. God! It’s still hurting.

Am telling you…this acting business so damn tough yaar. And for a person like me, who doesn’t posses something known as patience, its nearly impossible!

I am not going to act in any promo, or for that matter any thing, again!!!

There is something that is bothering me very acutely. It’s been one week now. The more I want to ignore this, the more it gets on me. It can be a minor issue if I ignore it. And it can be a major issue if I give it some more time and thoughts.

God!

I just don’t want to think about it. And the worst part is that I practically can’t do anything about it.

I am so helpless.

I should be concentrating on more important things in life. But no. I guess there is someone who wants to make things even worse for me (as if I am already having fun).

Does anyone know a good shrink?

When I am happy, people have problem.
When I am sad, people have problem.
When I speak, they have problem.
When I do not speak, then also they have problem.
Is there something wrong in my head?
Hmmm….what to do??

What if all of a sudden everyone around you seems to be really interested in getting you married…?
What if every second day your mother tells you the same thing- ‘beta, we will get you married by the end of next year.’…..?
What if you start getting visited by all the forgotten relatives, and being asked the ‘question’?
What if you can’t convince your mother about your future plans of not tying the knot for another five years?
I am bearing all this for the past two months.
The only saving grace is my father, who is not so eager to get me away.
Being the eldest one in my generation, it is natural to everyone around me to look forward to my marriage. But hey, isn’t it supposed to be ‘my’ marriage! Even my small cousins are so eager toward the issue, that they have already started deciding among each other about the D day.
What the heck I say!
I do not want to get married, not now, not for another five years.
Its not like that I am averse to the idea. It’s just that this is not the time. Six months before, the situation was just opposite. I wanted to get married in a year or maximum two. But as my mom and some other persons started discussing the issue, I started getting scared of the idea. And I dont know the logic behind fear.
I want to have a stable stand first. Only after that I will think of settling down.
I think I will have to be really strong to defend my stand.
Lets see…..

Fine. I think I need to take some serious decisions at this point of time. Decisions that wont change. I know am really bad at doing this. But this time I am going to try it with all my will power.
I am fed up double standards people show.
From now onwards I will give my emotions a break. They really need to take some time off.
And from now onwards I will try to prioritize things a bit practically.
Lets see…..

It was not for the first time that I experienced this kind of behavior from them. And it was not for the first time that i reacted in this manner! What happened was that i was kinda molested by a guy in the metro. And what I did was something I always do…I gave this person a tight slap! People standing around were a bit shocked..but then, I never give damn. What is more shocking is that as***le even didn’t has the sense to say sorry or something…he started arguing with me. It was getting out of my control….then a sensible looking uncle stood up from his seat and slapped this chap! Now it was his turn. He told me ” main dekh loonga”, and then he got down at the next station….and am still wondering that what will this guy “dekh lega”???
When I narrated the whole incidence to a friend, she told me not to create such scenes. You can never say about Delhi guys…they can do anything to take revenge. She tried to warn me…but what the heck?? I seriously do not posses something known as control or patience. And why should i tolerate these bloody bastards??
So…even after getting so called’ sensible’ advice from dear friend, Ruchika Pandit is not scared at all. She will keep doing what she is good at. She will keep beating the shit of these nasty , ugly and frustrated creatures.

Is saying that you hate someone really a strong expression??
Suhasini said it is. There is this guy in my class whom I dont like at all. And I dont like him to such an extent that I wont mind saying that I hate him.
On this, my dear friend told me that I should not be using the word ‘hate’ over here. But I think that I should not be telling people what they want to hear or what pleases their sensibilities. I should be telling them the truth, even if it hurts!! Because that is what people have been doing to me all the time. Its not like I am giving the world what I have received from it. Its like I am doing the right thing. I think people should know the reality, I think its totally unfair to keep them in any kind of illusion. And if I hate anyone, I can say it on his face. And if I love someone, I can tell this also very easily. I guess there is something with me, I dont feel shy yaar!!
I guess am not girl enough, or lets put it this way- I am not ‘TYPICAL INDIAN’ girl enough!
And yeah…I hate you ‘the guy in my class’!!