I just realised that tomorrow it will be whole good six months. I mean our six months! I mean Mrs. Ruchika Mittal’s six months! Six months of living in new home! Six months of living in new state! Six months of change! Six months of happiness (a bit of crying too)! Six months of sharing things! Six months of new Mom! Six months of new Papa! Six months of new family! Six roller coaster months!

How much cliched it may sound, but life has surely changed a lot. I have gained many many things i.e. weight. Have said good bye to many things i.e. aajtak! Have learnt many things.

I am different person. Well, not much, but yeah, a slightly different being.

Overall I have spent some nice memorable moments of my life. Thanks Sushubh.

Life is good.

I am enjoying my work. And, at last, I have learnt newsroom management. (that is what they call it!) It’s very rare that I get frustrated because of incompatibility of others. I am getting used to it slowly and steadily. In fact, I find these news people funny at times. Most of them have lost their sensibility. No, seriously, I am not joking. May be I will also lose it someday. I really don’t know. Looking at the way I am enjoying this work, this is the most predictable thing.
And yeah, I am going to a lot of page 3 parties these a days. And that deserves an entire post. I will discuss that later. Time to grab some grub!

And lemme clarify this to all of you- I AM ACTUALLY VERY HAPPY!

I have been waiting for this very moment since ages. And now , when am actually there, it seems like a dream. Finally I got what I deserved. Or may be, I will get it later this year. Hey hey hey…I wont spill the beans so easily yaar.

Keep watching this space for more details.

What if all of a sudden everyone around you seems to be really interested in getting you married…?
What if every second day your mother tells you the same thing- ‘beta, we will get you married by the end of next year.’…..?
What if you start getting visited by all the forgotten relatives, and being asked the ‘question’?
What if you can’t convince your mother about your future plans of not tying the knot for another five years?
I am bearing all this for the past two months.
The only saving grace is my father, who is not so eager to get me away.
Being the eldest one in my generation, it is natural to everyone around me to look forward to my marriage. But hey, isn’t it supposed to be ‘my’ marriage! Even my small cousins are so eager toward the issue, that they have already started deciding among each other about the D day.
What the heck I say!
I do not want to get married, not now, not for another five years.
Its not like that I am averse to the idea. It’s just that this is not the time. Six months before, the situation was just opposite. I wanted to get married in a year or maximum two. But as my mom and some other persons started discussing the issue, I started getting scared of the idea. And I dont know the logic behind fear.
I want to have a stable stand first. Only after that I will think of settling down.
I think I will have to be really strong to defend my stand.
Lets see…..

Fine. I think I need to take some serious decisions at this point of time. Decisions that wont change. I know am really bad at doing this. But this time I am going to try it with all my will power.
I am fed up double standards people show.
From now onwards I will give my emotions a break. They really need to take some time off.
And from now onwards I will try to prioritize things a bit practically.
Lets see…..

I have some really nice people in my life. Just the idea of being around them bring a smile on my face.
They do not provide me with the solutions of my problems, they encourage me to face them.
They encourage me to have more patience.
They tell me how to be happy by ignoring things.
And yeah…they listen to all my cribbings. That’s a very brave job, I must say!
If I look back at the Ruchika of two years ago, then I realize that these people have made a huge difference in my life. And its a positive difference!!
I want to tell these people something- YOU ARE JUST AWESOME!
Thank you for tolerating me…

A friend of mine said that she enjoys it when people sympathize with her.
Personally, I prefer anger over sympathy. Sympathy makes me feel like crying. Anger feels much better, makes me feel strong. Makes me feel like getting up and fighting, not just lying in the dust, weeping.
I felt exactly like this a few days ago. No more.
You people tell, what will be your pick- anger or sympathy?

She is uber cool. She is my bestest friend. She can never go wrong. She is my role model. She can read my mind. She can even read my face. She helps me out in the toughest of the situations. She laughs with me. She cries with me. She tolerates all my pj’s. She tolerates all my insanities. She is ultimate.
I don’t know about other mums but my mum is very cool about me having a boyfriend. And she is equally cool about me having a break up. In fact, she is the one who always cheers me up whenever I had any fight with my ex. She is the one who always boosted my morale. No matter what the situation is, she never behaved like typical Indian mothers. She understands me better than anyone.
we do have our share of arguments over some issues, but at the end of the day we just cant live without each other.
I LOVE YOU MOM!!