Today, by chance, I bumped into a very old friend.

We had a few words over coffee. He made me realise that I have changed a lot during the course of four years. In-fact, he went to the extreme of saying that I no more resemble to the girl I used to be four years back.

I ain’t surprised or shocked for that matter. But yeah, I am wondering. Am I a different Ruchika today??

Hmm…I guess I am. He is not the first person to tell me how I have evolved during these years. My best friend says the same.

What really shocked me during our conversation was that he thinks that I was faking my happiness.

According to him, I have learnt this very fine art of faking happiness. He thinks that I used be a brighter and merrier girl back in school. But no more.

My words for him- boss, take a chill pill. Its been four long years! I am a grown up girl now. I have  learnt about this world and its affairs the hard way. So it will naturally show on my face. And yeah, I know how to fake happiness. Thank you very much for telling. But I think its necessary.And its damn necessary!!

And lemme clarify this to all of you- I AM ACTUALLY VERY HAPPY!

I have been waiting for this very moment since ages. And now , when am actually there, it seems like a dream. Finally I got what I deserved. Or may be, I will get it later this year. Hey hey hey…I wont spill the beans so easily yaar.

Keep watching this space for more details.

Well….lemme clarify this first…I talk and I talk a lot!!
But I am suffering from a very stupid problem these a days.
I find myself short of things to talk about. And this happens only when I am with this particular person. Otherwise I am a radio station in myself. I talk non-stop with when with my other friends. But with this friend…I am like ummm…ummm….ummmmm…..
The person is not a beast or something, but I think I am kinda scared of this person.
Scared in the sense that I dont want to annoy this person ( which i often do).
Any way…I think I should stop it here only….I need to go..mom is calling!!

The proposal says that the government will waive off all the debts on the farmers having less than 5 acres of land. If this is going to happen, then a whopping amount if Rs 60000 crore will be like wasted!!
Well…I will call it a vote bank move.
Today I was there at Confederation of Indian Industry at IHC.
Mr. Sunil Bharti Mittal addressed the press conference after the announcement of budget proposal.
His take on this proposal: I appreciate government’s move. But from where will it compensate for this amount of 60000 crore????
I ask the same question.

I am very happy these a days….!
Is it in the air??

Is saying that you hate someone really a strong expression??
Suhasini said it is. There is this guy in my class whom I dont like at all. And I dont like him to such an extent that I wont mind saying that I hate him.
On this, my dear friend told me that I should not be using the word ‘hate’ over here. But I think that I should not be telling people what they want to hear or what pleases their sensibilities. I should be telling them the truth, even if it hurts!! Because that is what people have been doing to me all the time. Its not like I am giving the world what I have received from it. Its like I am doing the right thing. I think people should know the reality, I think its totally unfair to keep them in any kind of illusion. And if I hate anyone, I can say it on his face. And if I love someone, I can tell this also very easily. I guess there is something with me, I dont feel shy yaar!!
I guess am not girl enough, or lets put it this way- I am not ‘TYPICAL INDIAN’ girl enough!
And yeah…I hate you ‘the guy in my class’!!

My daily diet:

Breakfast- two toast with butter, a glass of milk
Lunch- two or three chapatis, small bowl full of veg or non veg curry, some curd and some soft drink.
Evening snack- some sandwiches and a cup of lemon tea.
Dinner- dal, chawal, some subzi, one chapati, some curd and a bar or two of chocolate.
And a glass full of milk when i go to bed.
This plan changes whenever I go out with my pals. I prefer chinese whenever I eat out.
And I weigh around 50 kgs.

Still my mom keeps telling me that I look like an anorexic and I should eat more.
What to do??